I feel lack of something my inside

...I am tired. I left 214 earlier than the time I want because I feel lack of something my inside. I know what I want. I know what I need. What I want and need is not at 214. So, I come back home and eat some thing in the hope of better time after. I take bath and listen to the music. My emotions are going to be more ready. I have a very good feeling. I am ready. Hormones are moving more than before. My eyes look at him deeper than before. I want him for whole nights. I can feel his smell and attraction more than before. My breathing is regular but tonight I can feel it easily. I feel relax enough so that he easily takes me wherever he likes...
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I close my eyes and just feel...
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Sunshine can be seen, but I still need him. I still feel lack of something my inside...