Sunday, November 22, 2009
Life changes but I am still A GIRL
She felt better for a short time. She was happy and relieved, but last night she saw every thing is again going to be bad. She doesn't have any support. People cannot help her and the only person who can help her is herself. People just need her help, and nobody helps her. She made a break, mentally. Nevertheless, stresses are worse than before some times. No body, no body accept to take care of her. People just scared when they see she has so many and just need a little more. The last step to be close to frontier. As long as she cannot get it, she cannot reach the point and all attempts sounds fucked up...
Lonely girl in group of best friends
Some times she feels alone, totally without any supporter, neither friend nor family.
Yesterday was a bad day for her, maybe yesterday superstition of 13th of month came true and this unluckiness caught her. She was crying whole the day, whether she did it facially or hearty…
The problem is that she never wants to give up. She always wants to fight, for what she wants and thinks to be deserved to achieve, against destiny. She believes so far in destiny in just one point of life: when she defeats and sees no more energy to keep fighting. In other moments of her life, destiny doesn’t have any place, even in corner, in her mind. Nevertheless, she never refuses the role of destiny in moments of fighting.
She wants to be an independent girl and perfect, the same as years ago when she was at home. But it doesn’t sound easy under these circumstances. She knows it is not easy, but it is a brittle excuse for her to give up or take it easy. First one never recommended to her, whereas the second one strongly suggested. Both seem to her wrong at this time corresponding to the situation. She just thinks about keep fighting…
Girl is tired, disappointed and frustrated; scared from future and still in an insecure sense…she is younger and less experienced so that she knows how to manage problems. She lost nice relation hopefully temporary with friends and family…She doesn’t know what she should do…She is waiting for the result, hopefully some nice solutions, by the end of this week…
She is in love…She is going to be deported…She is sad…sad…sad…so deep…
Yesterday was a bad day for her, maybe yesterday superstition of 13th of month came true and this unluckiness caught her. She was crying whole the day, whether she did it facially or hearty…
The problem is that she never wants to give up. She always wants to fight, for what she wants and thinks to be deserved to achieve, against destiny. She believes so far in destiny in just one point of life: when she defeats and sees no more energy to keep fighting. In other moments of her life, destiny doesn’t have any place, even in corner, in her mind. Nevertheless, she never refuses the role of destiny in moments of fighting.
She wants to be an independent girl and perfect, the same as years ago when she was at home. But it doesn’t sound easy under these circumstances. She knows it is not easy, but it is a brittle excuse for her to give up or take it easy. First one never recommended to her, whereas the second one strongly suggested. Both seem to her wrong at this time corresponding to the situation. She just thinks about keep fighting…
Girl is tired, disappointed and frustrated; scared from future and still in an insecure sense…she is younger and less experienced so that she knows how to manage problems. She lost nice relation hopefully temporary with friends and family…She doesn’t know what she should do…She is waiting for the result, hopefully some nice solutions, by the end of this week…
She is in love…She is going to be deported…She is sad…sad…sad…so deep…
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